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Lukaschik Gleb

The Irresistible Mad Craving for Freedom. Chapter XIX: “The hints on withstand of summer.”

Sunday of twenty-second week. I finished with Glenfarclas 12 Years Old in three glasses. Two weeks without love were too much for me. Heat was in usual ruthless to me. The second speed was on. It was in work in a strong rain and thunder outside.

 

I didn’t want to put that addition to a first novella of Tales on Wanderings but it was worth to do. That no desire was to a second novella especially. Sometimes I wanted to write else to there, but I discovered that such thought was expressed. I made that I wrote everything what I wanted and it stopped to bother me in the last years. Visiting of train station in previous week pushed me on necessity to include this phenomenon. I could write this when I was in writing, but I didn’t because a though was expressed my book had research on that topic. I never put own experience to characters. If things are common, I do that. I watched on slave behavior in my first trip to Paris in few months before I had novella in conception. Maybe, I did not include by avoiding similarities with myself though it was a common and could experience anybody who sees further of own nose what therefore could have my active personage. Writing of novella was with goal to describe reality but through created an individual experience.

I looked on text and felt that I far far away from all this. I spent a little time for forming. I put a single sentence and soulfully exhaled. However, I stumble and circumstances pointed on one word to which always required to be with other one, but it didn’t arise in memory when I did writing – that was supposed to be with mentioning of “phraseologies”. I wanted to put this one word in years but I did reading of vocabulary more than once in which I saw that I can don’t add. I understood in that day by restoring my memory, a book had pieces, which intentionally were supposed to be but absented. As bits of mosaic which I forgot to put them in. Film’s shots lost in editing. I did it after all. I can don’t hesitate in concluding that I ended with everything now.

 

My return to the big book began in the evening of Saturday. I did addition to article written months ago. I realized reasonable in filling of known information. A doctor must make a full analysis in describing of patient’s lunacy and I was supposed to be such man.

In Sunday, I wanted to do a final text as intended in previous week. I was full of fire. Nothing pushed away for not executing it. And there always was something prevented that. No, it was not woman as usually happens here. It was more simple. The new disclosed materials which instigated to investigations and I was in writing of text for a first penultimate article in Monday. I could make for one day but I extended to Tuesday because still had no hurry. I completed and approached to the final text. I had reluctant feeling but overcame it and became to refine of put sentences. It was with a premature sense turned emotional until I swapped on reading movie news in which I was informed on release of Art of Eight Limbs. It became a rare contemporary movie watched till end. I wanted to make over in the last dozen minutes few times. However, it was no so killing and I witnessed credits.

 

I had beyond the better in Alain Delon’s Belgian Malinois Loubo will live. I was flabbergasted when I heard actor’s request many years ago. Despite I felt a devastated effect by knowing on his passing, but friendship with criminals and involvement in killing of his bodyguard who wasn’t a good human being and his acts weren’t diligent but it was not morally to kill him for that. Justice required. Everyone involved was supposed to be put in prison. Delon exposed himself by efforts to prevent a publishing book on affair.

 

My strange habit reminded on itself in occasions. Anyway, I could expect from Alien: Romulus only in metrics of worst. A political correct cast who can’t act under director who never made other than dreadful were positioning before seeing. Shy android. I describe on phenomenon. This quality of his personality had trine and two-bit streaming to that he will defeat his flaw. It was only expectation of when he will take a gun and will use it. Modern cinema doesn’t make sophisticated in scripts.

Primitive reached trailers which tell everything today. That was when I saw full plot describing of Alien: Romulus. Videos of announcing movies show shots in which villain comes to death. A whole story was in glimpse in The Silent Hour to which I had a short time coveting by originality of storyline and director Brad Anderson staged and wrote excellent mystery thriller Transsiberian. It was disrupted by looking trailer few times more. I saw overall and it’s typical structure at first watching but I relied on approach of narrating and surprise by action. That detailed studying convinced in vice versa.

 

A developer of We Harvest Shadows can create horror. I did not see sudden jumps and screams at least. That idea with became worked TV in which shows protagonist’s house to which image does approaching, I would make that hero comes to entrance and give horror be keeping unknown there. A game has a conception with potential. A man decides to live in deep forest by doing vegetable gardening and it will with killing monsters. This breaks by already seen story that main hero isn’t coherent in balance in feelings because he wished to live outside of civilization and he doesn’t like it. I do not believe he came to stance that perceives uncanny as natural. Artificial intelligence is that the wolves have stupor. Rifle shooting is one in optioned. And personally, I can’t bear any existing gardening even seeing on this in computer games. I’m all right only in harvesting such as do rip off of few berries and eat on place. I will cut a contact with a person who will pressure me to do any such work.

 

I considered Governor of Poker 2 as perfect in Texas hold ’em computer game. Many months ago, I decided to win Lone Star state again. I chose second of two difficulties. I detected eventually that algorithm on hard is based on less probability to win. You always lose when have great cards and you have little probability to win with lousy cards. First difficulty increases luck to it’s good to be true if compare with reality because you will victorious likely. I still have some love to this game after that.

 

The weather became soft in evening of Wednesday. A lovely summer rain came in the end and I kept fan on the first speed. A tender cold was in the next day. I had lunch and went out for sit on a bench and have tea in the end. I looked on trees and they had beginning signs of fall.

 

I received double invitation to Polish centers, which sound was very quiet. Handless on both will be one excuse for explanation of their incapability to proper sending. I launched links and had misfire in all times. That situation created a little inner frustration. I was in desire to begin familiar reasoning with myself on why I the unluckiest person in the world and, probably, came to point caused my misfortunes which twentieth anniversary I can celebrate in the next year but I knew that I must do something else. I couldn’t accept motionless. I already was thinking about US embassy with long term of awaiting and took decision to do it in the next week. And I will let to know to Polish embassy what I’m thinking on service quality.

 

I was going to drink before I had a situation with Polish centers. A glass of brandy Carlos I, which cork was broken on half and it reminded on my state of luck, and bottle of La Braccesca Vino Nobile de Montepulciano were beverages of evening. Brandy was something made impression from Spain in alcohol. While my negative conclusion to Germany about this which in experience and it was corroborated by studying in this week on ice wine among those who does it natural. I had drinking an Austrian bottle and this country is not different in that with same-language-speaking neighbor. On ice wine, I saw that I must look for in Canadian makers who does a big production and this case about they are supposed to be honed in craft.

 

Fall was more closer when I had drinking of lousy wine on the bench.


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