I wasn’t quiet inside as it was every time in day of result of Green Card lottery. I felt cold even the sun shined on my side and air conditioner was off. I didn’t get warm when I moved out. I wasn’t going to check in that day. I didn’t want to think about it, but my inner stance was different. A thought did returning. I was sweating in cold. Dee Brown made me to forget, but it was always shortly, because I couldn’t force myself with reading despite book was becoming more hyping. I watched on clock automatically and my mind counted left time. The hours became minutes. Some force pushed to look to there and see each next minute. I was listening music such Bonnie Tyler’s Total Eclipse of My Heart and Ozzy Osbourne’s Mama, I’m Coming Home. Time of revelation happened while I used airport approach. Something pressured me to know truth in that today. I entered after one hour when site wasn’t overloaded (it had a little slow down to moment of visiting.). An answer was usual. It reminded again that I shouldn’t rely on this. I perceived with easy heart. Moreover, it encouraged on do myself. I always had that I don’t like to just get it.
Martini Prosecco was dried in evening before what I wouldn’t do it, but it was freely received bottle. I would choose other champagne for possible celebration if I would want it while I would poured a glass of Ballantine’s in case of getting and nothing more. I was still with the big book. I had deep in guts that it is not over initially because there was a detail, which likely required a proper finish. I needed to wait an event to complete with it. I still was wishing vice versa. Process of the big book is teasing me. I want to catch a rabbit. I run to him and going to grab, but he teleports to other place. However, it is needful with writing of new articles, things which I would never do on freedom for artistic reasons. While I continue to be in searching for an answer of “when will it over?” A math’s task in drown line with “X”, which is a time of mine asking. I must find this “X”. I more become to sense that is inevitable lately. Come back to past is impossible even if I would lose mind and tried to twist back the hands on clock. Some past tried to return me to there, but I plastered a missed crevice weeks ago. However, I still not in future. I somewhere in the middle of present nowhere. I have no stereogram through which I couldn’t see. No thing which was in mystery. There were small investigations as one was with Polish studio Destructive Creations, but I ended all of them and have no another since that. I wrote to prime minister of Greece about lack of professionalism of the Foreign Ministry with whole truth story and described current stance in the world. I promised, I willn’t come to his country if things will same in that personnel in embassy and the Foreign Ministry willn’t be changed. I said that it can probably only happen if an honest right-wing government will come though I hadn’t intention to be there since my visits in the end of nineties.
System of Polish centers was restored and there were installed new regulations for getting place in queue but that process extended time on more. It was another delay. I accepted happening misery for nonsense. I did some attempt in November but I began to use more possible variants in the middle of January. It was almost the middle of May. I more understand that I want to be in Normandy in June 6, but it seems not in this time though it’s a far time for coming of that day.
If I stabilized in Poland, I would use opportunity to visit theater for Sound of Freedom, which was in Poznan some time later after I left it’s town. I wasn’t in such venue for long and it becomes almost impossible about choice. I didn’t go on Angels & Demons because director (or it could be a main actor what doesn’t make matter due to issue is same.) voted for wrong guy on presidential election. It wasn’t right to boycott by having a different political view. But I see from today’s perspective when deranged communistic Hollywood expresses support for criminal Democratic Party and praises a “good shape” of Biden whose speech from occasional slurring became an absolute in more than three years of presidency – I did totally correct back then. Now, it’s one of many reasons of why I willn’t move to theater though I do not watch such films anyway. I willn’t regret if Hollywood will fall as Roman Empire in it’s lewdness. These studios don’t represent what they were before. Disney’s CEO directly said lately that corporation will do only sequels, because it’s easier from commercial perspective. A founder of it’s company was a disgusting man by anti-Semitic views and it’s ironic that a Jew heads his company now. Nevertheless, Walt Disney was an artist and that corroborates his written epistle to shareholders in December 1966 in which he speaks:
“Today, I propose to look to the future…to tell you about some of the plans, and some of the philosophy, that makes us tick here in the Disney organization.
Many people have asked, “Why don’t you make another Mary Poppins? Well, by nature I’m a born experimenter. To this day, I don’t believe in sequels. I can’t follow popular cycles. I have to move on to new things—there are many new worlds to conquer.
As a matter of fact, people have been asking us to make sequels ever since Mickey Mouse first became a star. We have bowed only on one occasion to the cry to repeat ourselves. Back in the ‘30s, The Three Little Pigs was an enormous hit, and the cry went up—”Give us more Pigs!” I could not see how we could possibly top pigs with pigs. But we tried, and I doubt whether any one of you reading this can name the other cartoons in which the pigs appeared.
We didn’t make the same mistake with Snow White. When it was a huge hit, the shout went up for more dwarfs. Top dwarfs with dwarfs? Why try?
Right now, we’re not thinking about making another Mary Poppins. We never will. Perhaps there will be other ventures with equal critical and financial success. But we know we cannot hit a home run with the bases loaded every time we go to the plate. We also know the only way we can even get to first base is by constantly going to bat and continuing to swing.
And so we’re always looking for new ideas and new stories, hoping that somehow we’ll come up with a different kind of Mary Poppins…or even a different kind of Disneyland.”
It’s every time when something successful becomes, people want continuation and it always will. Sylvester Stallone gave precise definition in writing letter to John G. Avildsen after Rocky that audience wants a new film as a new episode in TV series. I can do sequel, but if a story comes and it will only from artistic perspective what will anyway, because I will have detest if I will do anything commercial. And continuation will drastically different from what I made before. You can be an experimenter in sequel too.